I just can’t remember.

I just can’t remember.

Grasping for memories, forcing myself to remember every feeling. Forcing myself to recall every detail, every smell, every image. Forcing myself to dream; I create my own concealed world. Just me & my memories, I locked myself in. Safety.

But memories fade, feelings change, details are forgotten, smells don’t last, images vanish; my concealed world shatters to pieces. Locks break. People are over and done.


I don’t feel safe anymore. I just can’t remember how it feels to be safe.